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Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Inspired by Obedience

And He said to all, "If any would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me." Luke 9:23

I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:20 - 21

I have only known in my life one person that truly personified those verses.

In 2009, one of our youngest, most energetic ministers was taken to the hospital emergency room with chest pain. He was healthy and athletic. He taught PE at our local high school. This trip to the hospital began a journey that would last the next three years and affect more lives than anyone could have ever anticipated. Mike Storter was diagnosed with an aggressive form of leukemia.

Mike immediately began treatments for his disease and for a short period during these years was considered cancer-free. It was a brief remission, however, and when he exacerbated a few months later nothing would stop it. Not chemo, not bone marrow, nothing. It became apparent that short of a healing miracle of God, Mike was not going to recover. Our church continued to pray, but we were devastated. This would be a second young minister on staff to die of cancer within two years of each other. 

Mike could have given in to his illness. I mean, when you have a terminal illness no one will blame you if you don't continue to work and serve. But instead of giving in, he continued to attend church, minister to others and preach. He didn't do anything magnificent or explosive, he just continued to live his life in the face of what everyone else felt was a tragedy. His quiet persistence in his faith touched an untold number of lives.

As he continued to deteriorate, our senior pastor would give him time every Sunday morning to speak to the congregation and tell them what God had shown him the previous week. The notes I have in my Bible from those brief devotionals are priceless to me. As he neared death, his voice left him and he would get very breathless when he spoke - you could barely hear him - but he would struggle to the mic and pray. And the prayers that this man prayed came from somewhere I can only imagine exists. I have never, ever heard anything like it. He also maintained his sense of humor. He could joke about anything and he did so...right up to his funeral...

Photo compliments of Janine Benavidez
Mike was 45.
This picture was taken the last time Mike spoke to our congregation. Wearing his oxygen, barely able to speak above a whisper he talked about his journey through leukemia. At one point in his talk he pointed at himself and said, "In the light of someone else's eternity, what is this?" He was willing to obediently take on the mantle of cancer and death, if it meant someone else might spend eternity with Christ. Three weeks later, he was with Jesus.

Over 1000 people attended his memorial service. Our pastor read from the passage in Philippians 1 where Paul talks about being torn between life and death. I don't know if I will ever attain that. As I sat in that service, my eyes were drawn to the banners at the front of the church that were related to the current sermon series. Mike's casket rested between two banners that read "Make my Life....A Living Sacrifice". Every day, in every way, that is exactly what Mike did. Most pastors try to teach you how to live. Mike showed us how to die.

How does one come to this place? Over the past couple of years, I have struggled with what it means to be totally surrendered to Christ. Not just to give it lip service or to go through the motions, but to just give it all up, lay it all down, whatever He wants. In that, I have thought about what it would mean to sell all and move away, go on the missions field, live without, etc. But what if it meant the ultimate sacrifice? Would I be able to go through an illness unto death with the grace and faith that Mike showed and leave the kind of legacy that he left? I don't think so...not now.

Yes, I am inspired. Inspired to become more like Jesus. Inspired to continue to pursue total surrender. Inspired to deepen my walk. Inspired to reach out to others. Inspired to leave a legacy that glorifies Christ alone.

I said that Mike maintained his sense of humor up to - and including his funeral. These are things everyone should know according to Mike Storter ~ written in his own hand ~ as read by Rev. Tommy Warnock at his memorial service (comments in parenthesis are mine):


Pizza is a breakfast food.
(Maybe...)


Los sientos means "I'm sorry" in Puerto Rico.
(In a lot of Central FL, too)


Why would you make tea and not put sugar in it?
(People make tea and don't add sugar?)


The Bible is still as relevant as it ever was.
(Yes, it is)


If you are a believer, you need to act like it.
(Yes, you do)
And Mike did.


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Life Interrupted: Part 2

In my previous post, I told the story of my hip injury that interrupted our lives for approximately 2 years. I mentioned that there was more to the tale, so here is the rest of the story.

In August of 1998, I married for the second time. My new husband and I knew that my two children would be living with us, but never suspected that any of his children might want to move away from their mother in another state. We had only been married a month when the first of his sons chose to make the move and within a few months his other son was also living with us. We were newly weds with four children between the ages of 14 and 18 living under what had become a very small roof.

Our little home was so small that my husband and I had to give up the master bedroom to the three boys and we moved into one of the spare bedrooms. It was a trying time and there was no room to spare and no one ever had any privacy.  

Of course, in the midst of this was when I suffered the hip injury I talked about in my last post. So not only were we cramped - I was experiencing some disability at the same time.

My husband and I decided to put our house up for sale and purchase a large (5 bedroom, 3 bath) double-wide mobile home. We went to a dealer and made all of the necessary arrangements. We had a time frame for completion. We had a piece of property lined up to put it on. We were thrilled at the prospect of more room inside and out. 

Our house sold in record time - three weeks. I placed a call to the mobile home dealership before we accepted the offer to make sure everything was on track. I was assured that it was and we booked a short cruise for our entire family. We closed on the sale of our home, packed up all of our "stuff" and put it in storage, and sailed off into the sunset knowing that we would have to stay with relatives for about 3 weeks when we returned.

When we got back to civilization, we called to check on the progress of the house. Well....there's a problem. We needed both incomes to finance it and because I was receiving disability payments through worker's comp no one wanted to finance us because I did not have "guaranteed income". What?!?!? We couldn't have known this a month ago? We SOLD OUR HOUSE!!!!! WE ARE HOMELESS WITH FOUR TEENAGERS!!!!

What was supposed to be three weeks, turned into three and a half months of half of our family in one place and half in another. Tensions were high. And as if it couldn't get any better, the surgery I had been fighting for for two years was approved and scheduled. After you fight with and insurance company for that long, you don't tell them, "Ummm....Now is not a good time...." So off I went to have a hip replacement while my kids were farmed out all over, my husband was with his parents and I went post operatively to my parents home. What a mess.

During this time, a friend of mine who was not a Christian looked at me one day and said, "I don't know how you stay so calm. I would be a basket case if this were happening to me." Ahhh... possibly the meaning in the mess. I shared my faith. I wish I could say that she dropped to her knees in repentance, but it didn't happen that way. I was able to plant a seed, however.

Shortly (about two weeks) after I had my surgery and returned home to my parents, we learned of a nice home out in the country that was for rent by a friend of my husbands. I got my parents to take me to look at it and put down an deposit on it before my hubby even saw it. When he got home, I said, "If you want, we can go take a look at where we will be living for the next year." The only thing he said was "OK". On the day we moved, there must have been about 30 people who showed up to help us. Men moved furniture. Women set up my kitchen and put fresh linens on my beds. We just fed them lunch.

Our landlord/friend stood in amazement. He said he had never seen anything like it. We told him this is what it looks like when the community of faith rallies around someone in need. This is what it looks like when Christians show Jesus' love. More seeds. 

I'm still not sure I understand why our lives were so turned upside down for that year. I know learned the power of prayer. I learned the value of a community of Believers. I learned to trust a little more. I learned that God will provide. 

The house we moved into for that year wasn't all that beautiful. It had outdated formica in the bathroom and mauve carpet. The master bathroom toilet wouldn't flush when it rained. The kitchen was small, but the house was big. Big enough for all of us. It became one of my favorite places we have ever lived. I loved mowing the huge yard on the riding mower. I loved sitting outside under the trees for my quiet time and hanging my wash on the line to dry. I would move back there in a heartbeat. Maybe it was so special because we knew without a shadow of a doubt - it came from God. 

"And my God will meet ALL of your needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:19


Life Interrupted

Nineteen Ninety Nine was the year my life changed forever. Who knew that something that happens so fast could have such far reaching effects. But it can. Life can change in an instant. It wasn't the most catastrophic thing that could happen, but it was a major change, nonetheless.

I was working as a facility nurse at a small assisted living facility. I had been to lunch and upon my return noticed one of the residents crossing the busy four lane road in front of the building alone. I knew her to have dementia and knew she was not safe - so I ran after her. What happened next has some comedic irony to it. I got in the middle of the road. I know it was the middle because I remember looking down and seeing the double yellow line painted on the asphalt. I got in the middle of the road and tripped. Anti climactic? Well... when I tripped my leg twisted and I could hear the characteristic "thunk" as my hip was wrenched out of the socket. I fell to the pavement and thought, "I'll just lay here a minute and then I'll be able to get up..." Wrong. Within a minute, I knew that something was painfully, terribly wrong. The irony? An 80 something year old woman with dementia crossed a four lane road successfully while I, at age 38, had fallen and dislocated and fractured my hip. Funny, right? 

God's protection wasted no time... Here I was lying incapacitated in the middle of a busy road. Did I mention it was four lanes? A co-worker who had taken the day off "just happened" to be driving by and saw me fall. She blocked two lanes of traffic with her car. The FedEx truck coming the other direction saw me as well and blocked the other two lanes. I fell down, but I would not be hit by a car on this day.

Then began an agonizing process of being transported to the hospital, x-ray'd, CT scanned, and who knows what else with no benefit of pain medication. Finally, after 5 hours of torture I was taken to surgery where the surgeon cleaned bone fragments out of the joint and put everything back together. He told my family that the damage was as extensive as someone who had been t-boned in a car accident. After several days, I went home with a brace from my waist to my knees. I could not take it off for ANYTHING. I couldn't bend more than 45 degrees and it kept my legs spread apart at about a 45 degree angle. No showers. I will leave using the toilet to your imagination. Not comfortable.

I wish I could say that I was asking God daily for the lesson in all of this. I wish I could say that I was searching His Word for how to handle this debacle. I had been married to my second husband less than a year and we had four - count em - four teenagers living in our house. I was not being very super spiritual. I was not being very spiritual at all. I was pretty darn resentful and difficult to live with, if you want to know the truth. 

In spite of me, God was still good. He provided meal after meal from wonderful friends. Phone calls, visits, cards, flowers became part of my day to day existence. Often, they would try to encourage me by telling me that God was working this to my benefit. One friend told me I should ask God what lesson He was trying to teach me. I didn't care and I didn't want to hear it.

Then, six weeks later, came the icing on the cake. An MRI revealed that during the time my hip was dislocated the circulation had been disrupted for too long and the bone was dying - a condition known as avascular necrosis. The pain was unbelievable, but the disability was worse. At 38, I could barely do any housework, I couldn't buy groceries by myself because I couldn't stand that long, if I went to the mall or a theme park with the kids, I had to go in a wheelchair. The only option was a total hip replacement. 

I won't go into great length here because this is long enough already, but the next two years were spent in a legal battle with Worker's Compensation just to get authorization for the surgery. At the time, I could not see what God could possibly be doing that was working to my good. 

While we were fighting for surgery, I was unable to work but because I was covered by WC, they had to pay my salary while I was home. God provided.

During the same time period, we had a child who was having significant emotional issues. He was not doing well in school. We were constantly headed to doctor and counseling appointments. He needed supervision. Even though he was 17, he couldn't drive. It occurred to me one day, that had I not broken my hip, I don't know what we would have done. Because I was able to be home all the time, I was able to get him to appointments and his GED program. I was able to be present with him when he needed it and he was not left along during a fragile, vulnerable time in his life. God not only provided for us materially, but also emotionally.

The other positive that came from this time, was the time I was able to spend in Bible study and prayer. I often had the house to myself when all the kids were in school and in those quiet hours I had a season of spiritual growth and sweet time with the Lord that I have not experienced since to that extent. Once I got over being angry and started to listen to Him, we had some wonderful moments together. God provided spiritually.

Eventually, I had my surgery. Our oldest child moved out. The child that was struggling moved home to his biological mom. We were down to two kids, I went back to work, life returned to normal. Sigh. I had grown to like "abnormal". 

I look back on that time now almost wistfully. God had a plan. Not just for me, but for my family. It was a good plan. A plan to give us a future and a hope. He did work it all together for our good, even if it was a painful process and I learned to look for the lessons in the difficult times. (Jer 29:11; Rom 8:38) Life interrupted turned out to be the best thing that could have happened to me at the time.

(There is another aspect to this story that I never even mentioned...maybe I'll do a sequel...)

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Miracle in the Mundane

You sit in an office...staring at a computer...you feel like you are living "Groundhog Day" over and over and over... OR you are mindlessly watching the television night after night...barely comprehending what is passing before your eyes and into your ears... The monotony can be mind numbing and depressing.

Then, God gives you a window. It seems like such a little thing - this window - but it opens up a whole new world. A world where the sun breaks through the trees and warms your face. A world where cardinals flit through the tree branches, woodpeckers search every little crevice of the big oak tree for food, and the odd egret or crane may come strolling by. Butterflies are endless.
There are other visitors. The little stray tabby that always seems to have a belly full of kittens. The raccoons that have learned we feed the cats... 
Some days there are no visitors because the rain is relentless. Pounding the glass. Thunder and lightening right on the other side ... of this window.


How easy it is to get caught up in the computer screen and miss what happens just inches from my desk. How easy to get caught up in the drama that happens around me at work. How easy to forget to look and see. Why? Because I see it every day. Because it has become familiar. Because I take it for granted. This window.

How often we treat God the same way. So sure He's there, yet, never taking the time to look and listen. He shows His glory every day. In the nature outside my window. In His Word. In the gentle way He seeks to calm me with His still small voice. How easy to get caught up in the computer screen and miss the fact that He is right there with me all the time. How easy to get caught up in the drama that happens around me and forget that He is in control of every situation. How easy to just forget to stop, and look, and listen for Him. Why? Because His Word has become familiar. Because He is there all the time. Because I take Him for granted.

But He makes me a promise. If I seek Him, I will find Him, if I seek Him with all my heart. (Jer. 29:13) 

To seek Him with my whole heart, I must start my day with Him and end it with Him. I must learn to still myself to hear His voice. I must learn that His glory is not always some radical event, but is in the birds, and the racoons, and the rainstorms. I must ask Him to reveal His Presence to me. Then, in the middle of the work day, I can pause and look out the window and see His creation. When I see the flicker of red in the trees, I can know that He has given me a gift. He is there. When the tension around me becomes overwhelming, I can stop and remember that He is the Prince of Peace. When I seek Him like this, I will find Him and that is the miracle in the mundane.


Thursday, July 4, 2013

Devotion to Prayer

"Devote yourselves to prayer; stay alert in it with thanksgiving." Colossians 4:2

Prayer has never come naturally to me. I have always felt awkward in prayer for some reason. Over the past year, I have finally come to the conclusion that in all my years as a Christian, I have never really learned how to communicate with God properly. Not that I haven't made valiant efforts. I have had beautiful prayer journals. Sections for specific days and topics. I have written out my prayers (I still believe that helps me concentrate). I've used all the acronyms and prayer plans. But in the end, I look at it all and think, "If one of my friends communicated with me this way, I would toss them out the door." Some days I feel all I do is bring my wish list to God - admirable though it may be - and ask and ask and ask. For now, I'm done with asking.

Color me ecstatic when I learned our little Bible study between online Bible studies was going to be on prayer!

The verse at the top of the post from Colossians is one of our focal verses this week. It is the end of Paul's letter to the church at Colossi and he is asking for prayer for himself and for the word of God to go out.I can't say that verse two had ever jumped out at me before, but this time I saw with fresh eyes.

Devote. Dictionary.com says this means to concentrate on a particular pursuit, occupation, purpose, cause; to set apart or dedicate by a solemn or formal act; consecrate. The Amplified Bible reads like this, "Be diligent and unwearied and steadfast in your prayer (life)...". The Message says, "Pray diligently..."

My prayer life has to be intentional. I have to concentrate on it. While sending up short prayers during the day are necessary and good, I can't rely on that totally. I have to consecrate or dedicate myself to this act of communion with God. Like Mary in yesterday's post, I have to sit and listen. I can't just run in with a list of wants. I have to set apart a time and a place to have a conversation - talking AND listening. Preferably, more of the latter.

Stay alert. Alert is also defined as being "fully aware and attentive'. Once I dedicate myself to this pursuit of deeper prayer, I can't go about it haphazardly. I can't have the television on at the same time I'm talking to God. I can't be keeping one eye on the internet. I need to go into my closet and pray. (Matt 6:6) I must be fully aware and attentive, sitting at his feet, listening in order to hear what he has to speak into my life.

One word that caught my attention from the Amplified Bible was "unwearied". The thought of being weary in prayer resonated. Possibly because my prayers had become so much requesting and I seemed to receive so few answers, that I just got tired of trying. Beginning now, I am starting over. Getting back to basics, so to speak and learning all over again. My main goal is not to see tangible results, but to know him better. Then if  I remain in him and to have his words remain in me whatever I want will be done for me because it will be what he wants too. (John 15:7) 

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Mary, Mary, Never Contrary

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, 'Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!' 'Martha, Martha,' the Lord answered, 'you are worried and upset about many things but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.'" Luke 10: 38 - 42

No one has ever accused me of being a Martha. Don't get me wrong. My house is clean - sort of - and I can cook you a great Southern meal if you come over for dinner. I just hope you feel at home enough in my house to get up and refill your own sweet tea. (Glasses are in the top cabinet to the left of the stove)

I believe I have always had a little pride in not being a Martha. After all, Jesus did rebuke her. Tonight, though, as I read the story again, the Lord took me down a notch as I realized being worried and upset and busy don't necessarily have to do with my housekeeping skills. Sigh.

Now, I don't think there was a thing in the world WRONG with Martha wanting to be hospitable - especially to Jesus. I mean, really, if the God of the Universe in human form was having dinner at your house, wouldn't you want everything to be perfect?!?! I want Jesus to be welcome in my home, at my dinner table, with my friends...The problem was that Mary let all of her preparations come between her and her relationship with her Savior. Here he is. In her house. Telling her things that only God can know. And she is too busy in the kitchen to listen. I'm sensing a priority problem. 

I was interested to find a note in my Bible under the word 'preparations' indicating that the Greek word used here is diakonia. If this sounds familiar, its because its the word we get 'deacon' from. It means 'to serve, to attend to, to MINISTER to'. In one sense of the word, Martha was doing exactly what our deacons are called to do - serve and minister. Unfortunately, her service and her ministry was not what God wanted from her at that moment. Uh oh. You mean all my service at church is getting me nowhere, if I'm not spending time with him? Maybe, just maybe, I have some Martha tendencies after all? 

Here are a few insights I gained from the passage tonight:
1. Jesus wanted to spend time with Martha. He wasn't judging her for not listening to his teaching. He was disappointed because he loved her and he wanted to be with her, too. (John 11:5) In my own insecurity, sometimes I think it really doesn't matter if I pray or have my quiet time, because I'm not really all that important. He could be spending time with Billy Graham, or Tony Evans, or Beth Moore - why waste time on me?? I know in my head that God wants to spend time with me, too. It just has a hard time really making it into my heart sometimes. Tonight, he reminded me that it is important to him, that I take the time to be with him.
2. Mary placed the wrong priority on service. Service is good. We are called to minister to those around us. But not at the expense of our relationship with the Lord. Another note in my Bible says, "Our service to others should be in direct relationship to our time spent at the feet of Jesus." If I am not spending time with him, how do I know if my service is misplaced? How do I know if my priorities are right or wrong? Am I doing a good thing for the wrong reason? How can I minister to others if I am not allowing Jesus to minister to and teach me? 
3. Martha had a touch of ADD (she was distracted). Distraction is so easy these days. Work, TV, computers, smart phones, internet, activities, and on and on and on..... I get distracted too often from the moment I walk in the door after work to the last second before I lay my head on the pillow. So many things vying for my attention. It may not be the dishes in the sink calling my name, but I get distracted nonetheless.

What I need to take away from this:
  • He loves me and wants to spend time with me. He misses me when I don't. 
  • I need to get my priorities straight. I may need to step back from areas of service if they are interfering with my ability to spend time with Jesus.
  • I need to make sitting and listening part of my daily Bible study and quiet time routine. That's all Mary was doing..sitting and listening. What I gain from that time will not be taken from me.
  • I need to be intentional about getting rid of distractions. Plan a time and a place where I can sit at his feet without interruption.

And now, just for giggles.. Once upon a time, in another Bible study, I had to write an epitaph for Mary and Martha. So for your reading pleasure:

"Here lies Martha. Resting in peace for the very first time."

"Mary, Mary, never contrary, still sits at her Savior's feet.
She now can rejoice
For she hears His sweet voice
And from Martha - she can't hear a peep."




Thursday, May 23, 2013

God Is Here

Exodus 33:14  "And [God] said, 'My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.'"

Moses was leading the Israelites to the Promised Land. By the time they reached the 33rd chapter of Exodus, I think Moses might have wanted to take them back to Egypt. They were a bunch of complaining, idolatrous, ungrateful people that God labeled "stiff-necked". What nerve! Look how blessed they were. Released from slavery. Going to the land of milk and honey. God personally leading them with a visible sign by day and night. I would never do such a thing....and, yet...

How blessed I am everyday. I have been released from spiritual captivity. I am going to a Promised Land greater than the one ever offered to the Israelites. I live in the Land of the Free that all of the world wants to come to, now. I have milk and honey... and meat and potatoes... and a supermarket full of goodness. And I complain. And I am ungrateful. And, yes, I suspect I am even fairly idolatrous at times. I can be so "stiff necked' sometimes, that it literally makes my neck stiff. What nerve!

Moses had to be stressed out. And then God told him to take the people and go, but God wouldn't go with them. I guess He had just had it. But Moses knew what we need to learn. He could handle the stress and deal with the difficult people around him, if only God would go with him. 

He didn't pray for God to punish the people. He prayed for God to forgive them. He didn't ask for riches or material blessings from God. He didn't ask for comfort. He asked for His presence.

At the end of chapter 33, Moses prayed again. He didn't just want to know God's presence. Verse 18 says "Moses said, 'PLEASE show me Your glory.'" And God said, "I will make all my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name 'The LORD'." Can you even stand it?

I am on a journey through this life. I will go through seasons. Some will be good and others difficult. Through them all, I want God's presence to go with me. I want God to show me His glory. I want to see His goodness. 

Throughout life, there are times when we overwhelmingly sense God's presence. A wonderful worship service, a moment in nature, milestones like weddings, births, even deaths. But God wants to show us His glory everyday. His presence "never leaves us or forsakes us". What about the ray of sunshine that breaks through the clouds after the rain? The unexpected rainbow? That first time your new grandchild smiles at you? What about the moment we are so hurt it is painful? When we are wound so tight we might break if someone says one. more. word. We have to be aware and watchful. That still, small voice whispers to us constantly, "I am here. I've got you." 

When I am stiff necked from stress, I need to seek Him. I need to rest in His presence. I need to look for His glory all around me - because it is there. 

There is a song by Martha Munizzi and Israel and Maleesa Houghton called "God Is Here". It goes like this:
"There is a sweet anointing in this sanctuary. There is a stillness in the atmosphere. O, come lay down the burdens you have carried, for in this sanctuary, God Is Here."
I am the sanctuary (1 Cor 3:16). Am I still? Have I laid my burdens down? (1 Pet 5:7) Do I feel His presence in MY sanctuary? He is Immanuel...God With Us. He is here. His presence goes with me and He will give me rest.

It's a long song, but worth the watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S27luprE2a8



Sunday, May 19, 2013

Live a Peaceful Life

"I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercessions and thanksgiving be made for EVERYONE - for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness. This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants ALL men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth."  1 Timothy 2:1-4

At 2:40pm, on April 15 of this year, two bombs exploded at the Boston Marathon killing several and inflicting catastrophic injury on others. In the hours that followed we learned that two brothers were responsible - Tamerlan and Dzokhar Tsarnaev. 

At our church, the choir sings a song called 'There's Power in the Name of Jesus'. We were rehearsing it shortly after the bombing and something caught me in the words this time. They go something like this:

"A mother barely twenty out there on her own,
A teenage boy in prison, before he's even grown." 

A teenage boy. In prison. A BOY. Nineteen years old. His face is as familiar to us all now as the faces of our own family. The teenager we love to hate... The media and our legal system will tell us that he is an adult and will be tried as such. But any mother who has ever raised a son will tell you...at nineteen, he is still a boy.

Whether he had died from his injuries or whether he is executed for his crime, his life is over. At nineteen. His brother has already entered eternity with a lost soul. 

Shortly after his capture and arrest, someone asked me how, as a nurse, I would feel about taking care of Dzokhar in the hospital. I admitted it would be difficult but, as a Christian, I hoped that I would be able to demonstrate a measure of compassion. Because here is the kicker: Jesus died for Tamerlan and Dzokhar Tsarnaev, too. He desires that Dzokhar not perish. He is included in the ALL of 1 Timothy 2:4.

When we see and hear of these horrible events, whether they happen on our soil or across the world, we pray for the victims without a second thought. But what about the perpetrators? Who prays for them? Who asks Jesus to change them? 

Paul tells us to pray for EVERYONE. Why? So that we might live peaceful and quiet lives. The answer to violence in our world or acts of terrorism is not tighter security, stricter immigration policies, or a peace treaty. The answer to the lack of peace in this world is the Prince of Peace - Jesus Christ. Only when He enters in will peaceful and quiet lives be found.

The song goes on:
"A nation needing mercy, fighting for her life"        Oh, yes, we are.
"A church that needs revival...."                           Oh, yes, we do.

"BUT in the name of Jesus those chains of bondage fall.
Prayers are heard and answered when God's children call.
There's power in the name of Jesus..."                  Oh, yes, there is!

"There is hope, there is strength, and victory to claim"   Hallelujah!
"There is healing....."                                            Heal us, Lord.

There is victory in the name of Jesus - and healing - and we can know it because He that is in us is greater than he who is in the world. We cannot live in fear. WE HAVE THE POWER. The power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in us! (Romans 8:11; Ephesians 1:19-20) The power of His Name is in those of us who are called by His Name and we exercise it when we pray. 

Pray for the Dzokhars of the world. Pray for those in authority. Pray for your neighbors. Exercise your power. Live peacefully.

Click the link to hear the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK0KQgMLfHE

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

#Blessings

There are times in our lives when we realize we cannot understand what is happening in our world. These are the days we must count our blessings in order to keep from focusing on the unthinkable.

MY BLESSINGS:

Jesus Christ, My Savior
(Without Him how lost I would be)

Family
(Godly parents, wonderful husband, great kids and step-kids)

God's Word
(I love it!)

GRANDKIDS!!!
(Eight little girls, 2 little boys, 1 precious foster grand daughter. I could just kiss them all to pieces!)
(Make that 7 little girls and 1 big girl - she'll be 16 next month!)

My Job
(The very one that stresses me out...)

The Basics
(Food, clean water, shelter -so many don't have them)

My Church
(The BIG one and the little one)

My Cat
(Go ahead. Make fun. She loves me unconditionally)

Sunshine
(I am a Florida girl to the core)

Diet Coke
(I know...it's wrong...but it feels SO right. LOL)

Music
(All kinds. Well - almost all kinds...)

Books
(So many books...so little time)

There are many more. I love the idea of Ann Voskamp's "1000 Blessings" - keeping a gratitude journal and listing 1000 blessings every year. It seems like an overwhelming task, but I remember a hymn from my childhood:

"Count your blessings name them one by one.
Count your blessings see what God has done. 
Count your blessings name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord has done."

How has God surprised you today?


Friday, March 29, 2013

I Stand Amazed

I grew up singing songs in church. Lots of songs. Songs in Sunday School. Songs in children's choir. Songs in big church. Songs in youth choir. Songs in adult choir. Songs in the pew. Songs in the praise team. Lots of songs... I can still remember songs from my childhood. I could sing them in my sleep.. 

Unfortunately, I think too often, we are singing them in our sleep. We sing from rote and our minds wander while the words and the notes pour from our mouths. How often do I sing a song on Sunday from start to finish while my mind wanders to what everyone is wearing, or what's for lunch, or... you get the picture.

I love singing. I love the children's songs and the choir anthems and the old hymns and the contemporary praise and worship music. I love it all - I really do. But I think if just every once in awhile we slowed it down enough to really think about the words, we would sing with renewed vigor. Or maybe, we would find ourselves so choked up by what we are singing that the words will no longer come. We would find ourselves truly worshiping instead of just going through the motions.

Tonight was our Good Friday service at my church. We sang one of my favorite 'old hymns'. (I love old and new music, but I believe our children are missing a tremendous amount of theology and history by not learning the old hymns of our faith) 

Just take in the words to this one for a minute:

"I stand amazed in the presence of Jesus the Nazarene..."  Whoa. In the presence of Jesus. Who wouldn't be amazed? More than amazed. Awestruck. Dumbfounded. In Revelation 1:17, John couldn't stand in His presence. He fell down at His feet as though he were dead. Holy reverence. Worship.

"And wonder how He could love me, A sinner condemned unclean." How, indeed? Do you ever wonder?

"He took my sins and my sorrows, He made them His very own..." Are you sorrowful tonight? The God of the universe will take your sorrow and make them His own. He took MY sin and yours and made it His. What kind of God IS this?

"He bore the burden to Calvary, and suffered and died alone." He took my sin and made it His. He hung it on a cross. His Father couldn't even look at Him. He was more alone than we can even begin to comprehend. Thank you, Jesus! There is not enough gratitude in the world.

From the 1956 Baptist Hymnal
"When with the ransomed in glory His face I at last shall see..." Can you even stand it?!?! To see the face of Jesus...what more could anyone want? Ever? Nothing else even compares. 

"Twill be my joy through the ages to sing of His love for me." Yes it will! Did I mention I love to sing?? Singing through the ages...of what He did for me. Loving me in my sin. Praying for me. Taking my sin. Dying on the cross. Forgiving me. And why can't the ages start now?

So just meditate on those lines for a moment. Really think about them. Turn them around in your head and your heart. How could He love you? How could He love me? It is inconceivable, but He does! And we don't have to wait for eternity to stand in His presence. He is here with us and in us. We can stand in His presence moment by moment, day by day, because He loved us enough to do the necessary work that would reconcile us to Him. Really meditate on that.

NOW, you can sing the chorus:
"How marvelous! How wonderful! And my song shall ever be;
 How marvelous! How wonderful! Is my Saviour's love for me!"  

Yes. It. Is.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Seasons of the Soul

Larry and I left home yesterday to begin the trek northward to the Tennessee mountains. This is one of our favorite places, but we don't generally journey there this time of the year. What draws us this year is a new grandbaby.

As we are making our way through northern Georgia, the reason we choose a different season is abundantly clear. Although winter is technically over, the landscape is relatively bare. In many places the grass is still brown, trees look dead and leafless. There is a drab lack of color.

We have been this way before. In the spring when the green is especially vibrant and the leaves look particularly tender. We have been this way in the summer when flowers are blooming and wildlife is thriving. We have been this way in the fall when leaves are yellow and gold and red and orange - when the mountains appear to be on fire. We know there is life here - we just can't see it right now.

Life is always a cycle. I recently lost two elderly family members. They had lived long lives and left a Godly legacy as well as a huge family legacy...children, grandchildren, great grandchildren. A life ends and, yet, life goes on.

Larry and I are going to see a new grandchild only a few weeks on this earth. Life begins again.

Our spirit is often the same. We have the spring of a new lesson learned, a sweet and tender time with Jesus. We have summers of activity and wildness when our relationship with God is an adventure to be sure. Then there is the fall when we settle in with wonder and amazement at what He has done.

And, of course, there are the winters. The barren times of the soul when colors are drab and our spiritual lives feel lifeless. But just like the mountains in winter, there is still life here. It is waiting for just the right moment to burst forth in a new spring and the cycle will begin again. We just have to keep living and moving and having our being in Him. (Acts 17:48) This is the time to be still and know that He is God. (Ps 46:10) The time to know that He holds all things together. (Col. 1:16)

We have been this way before...




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Friday, March 1, 2013

Window to the World

You sit in an office...staring at a computer...performing the same repetitive tasks over and over...wondering why you are here...

And then, God gives you a window. A window that looks out at the world He created. Suddenly, in the midst of the mundane, you can see the sun breaking through the tops of the trees. Shining through the glass. Warming your face. Causing the grass to sparkle as it reflects off the dew.

Or maybe the sun is hiding today, and, instead, you get a rainstorm so close you feel you need an umbrella. Just on the other side of the glass.

And we cannot forget the visitors who come to keep you company. The regal egret, slowly picking his way through the landscaping. He stops and eyes any movement he sees coming from inside the glass on his way by. And there are the cardinals that visit the large palmetto bush just the other side of the lawn. The little stray cat that stops and peaks in the window to see what you are doing from time to time with her belly full of kittens that are soon to make their appearance.


Today's visitor was another flash of red in the big oak tree. You watched and realized it was a little woodpecker flitting among the branches looking for unsuspecting insects.

Ah....God's glory!

Often we get so caught up in what we believe are our mundane, monotonous lives that we forget God's glory is all around us. We simply have to have our eyes open to see.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord, I want to see You.